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So Unfair But That's The Life Of Moi

listening to: the rain
drinking: water once again
watching: my life being wasted away each fucking minute

You kill for
revenge.
That is because you have lost something or
someone you held very dear. Now you can't seem
to get over the loss that marked your soul, and
the only solution is to go after the one person
who brought all this pain to you. Chances are
you are angry inside and you bottle everything
up and don't talk to anyone about it. People
may want to help, but you think that they can
never understand your pain and only get
frustrated because of this. But it is important
to see all that you have left and be thankful
of that even if you have lost something great.
It may not be true that Times heals all wounds,
but with time and talking about your feelings,
maybe the hurt will ease.

Main weapon: Yourself
Quote: "You can close your eyes to
reality but not to memories" -Stainslaw J.
Lec
Facial expression: Gritted teeth and
teary eyes

hmmph..thats funny. me kill for revenge ne? wonder what my ancestors say to that?...

at the moment i'm not really doing so good. i got a stomach ache and once again the fighting has started. this time its about future occupations. Brian thinks that he can do everything better than i can! its not that i'm trying to get into this competition with his future jobs, i just want to go to college to learn how to design video games. thats all i want...that and learn how to draw better lol. but i don't know. i just wish he didn't have to say those things to me. it really hurt. i mean it really fucking hurt.

fuck..i really hate crying. this sucks, my eye hurts now.

all my life people were pushing me to get into some big 4 year college, things that i didn't want to deal with. and dad yelling at me all the way over in Europe saying being a writer isn't good enough. you need to something more constructive and business like. grandpa yelling at me saying video games are for stupid lazy people, you need to be more business like and stop living in some stupid world were bullshit like that can actually get you somewhere. and of course if i tell them, all my family outside of this state that this is what i want to do, nobody will help me. my mom said that she'll try to save up some money, but i said no. she has enough money problems, i don't want her stressing over this. this is my thing to stress over with.

heh. it really sucks to be poor.

well its time to go away now. i wanna work on my cast page again, nearly done but the momma wants her turn on the computer so i won't get no more time later tonight. i could go to mom's but..like i said..she's got a really ssssssslllllloooooowwwwwwwww computer...that i want to finish playing Yoshi's Island on the SNES. maybe Yoshi's cuteness will cheer me up. that and tomorrow me and the momma are going grocery shopping and we might go to Game Crazy so i can have a new game. i miss playing F-Zero...and Captain Falcon is still ugly ^__^

8:27 p.m. - Wednesday, June 1, 2005

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My Necrotic Regulus Lives Once More....

Fuck This Game

Who Would Of Thought Ne?

Happy Breaking From The Womb Day To Meh

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