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I Don't Know
listening to: nada
drinking: nada
watching: nada
oy..thought i just take a break and mumble about stuff..
last night i had a few thoughts running through my mind..i don't know..it was just one of those nights where i opened the window all the way and just lay there on the bed staring at the sky..it was so damn peaceful..i'm not really sure where i'm going with this but meh..just last night i'd never thought i would feel so lonely..for once i wish i had someone laying down next to me to share that beautiful moment..and then out of nowhere that little flash thing called Shii's Song popped in my head and i wanted to cry all over again..it was so pathetic..i actually imagined falling asleep in someone's arms..made me feel a little bit better but still..deep down inside i'm crumbling into pieces and i'm not sure how to stop it..
blah..i really fucking hate crying..i hate revealing my weaknesses..pisses me off to no end..
::sigh::..not really sure how i'm gonna survive being alone again...
meh..i need to fucking stop being so goddamn depressed..its just so fucking hard now..i'd thought that now since i'm a adult these stupid emotions wouldn't be so hard on me..but now its just got even more difficult..
i don't think i've ever felt so alone before..i don't even know if my guardian is out there looking over me anymore...
sometime later: oy..i got this stuck in my head..something that reminds me of my guardian..more of a song that both makes me proud and sad of what i am..and for all the humans..shut your fucking mouth and open your goddamn ears...
The last bird from a scattered flockSeeks shelter in a tree
Alone amongst the lonely woods
He will cry when noone hears
He will fall when noone cares
Palls of grief hanging in the clouds
What must go wrong, so that we see
There's not enough to make us stop
We are the devils of a dying land
What evil spirit holds us here
We wear a careless mask
Making friends with death
We are the devils of a dying land
Mankind took all nature's pride
Mercy out of sight
Demons dark around us swarm
Forests' last time
The short last sound of singing birds
We don't know what it means
Will we ever know?
A world where iron shells
Can kill men's blood
A world of emptiness
A dying land
We are the devils of a dying land
What evil spirit holds us here
We wear a careless mask
Making friends with death
We are the devils of a dying land
We are the devils of a dying land
What evil spirit holds us here
We wear a careless mask
Making friends with death
We are the devils of a dying land
We are the devils of a dying land
What evil spirit holds us here
We wear a careless mask
Making friends with death
We are the devils of a dying land
--Dying Land, Darkseed
meh..fuck staying inside while its raining..i'm going outside and take a walk in the woods..
5:25 p.m. - Wednesday, October 5, 2005
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My Necrotic Regulus Lives Once More....
Happy Breaking From The Womb Day To Meh
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