----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Daddy Is Completely Full Of Bullshit hmm..well this isn't pretty i can tell you that now.. i'm in a bit of a gloomy mood at the time. i came down here mostly to help my mom look for her birth certificate, nationalization papers, high school diploma, etc. since she has to get a new job. and i found this green tin box thing that had a shit load of papers and just about everything in there were letters from my dad sent to mom while he was away in Germany cuz he was doing army business. and of course all these letter were writtin before-during-after The Great Divorce. i didn't really waste my time with most of them but i found one that just kinda stuck to me and i read the entire thing and i hate to say it but i cried, mostly out of anger cuz all of it was bullshit. so here tis my father's letter of lies sent from him to his mom (A.K.A: Grandma Hatey): 1 Nov 90 Dear Mom, I hope this letter finds you in good health and that everything is fine with you. I'm sorry for causing so much turmoil and pain in so many lives. I intended to let nothing or nobody get in between Mary and I. My marriage was very important to me, but something happened that only a few people seem to understand. .....aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh yesh..so who agrees that this is bullshit, neh? even though this happened almost 15 years ago, everytime i find something like this or hear about what happened, it hurts alot. since i was the youngest i was kept from all of it and my mind blanked everything that i didn't want to hear, one of the reasons why now i don't remember much of my childhood or anyone in my family. but meh who cares anymore. its all that bastards fault for fucking up. and if anyone wants to know, he didn't keep any of his promises. instead of getting about over $1,000 for child support, it got cut down to $600. he promised he'd never quit the army, well he did and our medical and dental went down the drain. he never kept in contact, just every birthday or christmas was a card, sometimes a check too. and he promised to never have anymore kids and here i am with a half-sister and half-brother. and now he's fucking up even more. yelling at my sisters about crap..asshole how dare he do this shit. sometimes i always have to tell myself that it doesn't matter anymore. that i don't need that. that i have moved on to better things. and i have gotten so much better dealing with it...... tonight isn't one of those sometimes. oh look a stereo, hey mom's vodka. coincidence..i think not.... 10:50 p.m. - Friday, May 20, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Necrotic Regulus Lives Once More.... Happy Breaking From The Womb Day To Meh ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Free Hit Counters |
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